#TransformationTuesday :: đSELF HATE vs SELF LOVEâ¤ď¸ Took a little trip down memory lane Iâve been avoidingâŚWOW. 6 years ago and 20lbs heavier. This is from my freshman year of college when I was playing D1 volleyball. I had EVERY reason in the world to succeed but I was mad, confused and disappointed with myself so I started to self-destruct. I thought changing my hair would help and that getting dressed to impress random guys would make me feel valuable because I was âhaving fun.â But it didnât. It all made me feel empty and out of control to the point where I tried drinking my emotions away every night I had the chance. This picture says so much about the person I was and how much FIGHTING it took me to find myself again. It reminds me of how bad things got when I was running away from my problems and my emotions instead of facing and dealing with them. Trying to block out and forget that time of my life didnât get me anywhere. It wasnât until I got really honest about where Iâd end if I kept going down this path that I was able to pull my head out of my ass and make a change. I used to be really ashamed of these pictures, but going through all that shit made me a tougher person. We all make mistakes, but you have to learn to stop living in the past and FORGIVE YOURSELF if you want to get stronger and move forward. I know it's hard, but trust me, it's a lot harder if you do it on your own đekittlefitness@gmail.com